pizza.

Breakfast: one cup rice puffs - 60 cals
splash milk-30 cals


lunch: 2/3 cup roasted broccoli peppers onions and carrots - 50 cals
tomatoes and lettuce "salad"- 20

weight: 102.6 after work

dinner (sigh)- one medium pineapple and green olive pizza from dominos...yeah i ate an entire pizza oink oink lol
...purge purge purge...
weight:102.4 after purge

so all in all i think i fixed the disaster i caused. you are all so right about boytoy, he says he doesnt understand the seriousness of the situation and that if i wanted to stop then i should...and in a way i understand his ignorance to a point, like how i thought i could be ana and control it 100 percent of the time and well its pretty clear that im not in control lol. but then there is the fact that ive told him how dangerous it is and after hearing the facts he should just care or be worried or anything! and he wasnt. so i went back to anorexia and when i told him this he actually had the balls to ask me if i would stick with bulimia so we could still eat together...
this is a fucked relationship.
so tonight i tested him, to see if he was serious.

me: hey why dont we get pizza tonight, ill get one and you get one
      him: yeah that sounds good
me: yeah it feels like a binging kind of night.
      him: binging?
me: yeah you know, binging and purging. as in im going to eat. then throw it up in the toilet like it never happened  :) (i smiled at this point at him)
       him: well okay i want thin crust...(blah blah blah you get the rest)

im on the road to salvation and it does not end in triple digits.
on a side note ive made a ton of friends up here so woot woot on that little nugget O' fun. one is this language teacher that got layed off, hes like 37 and an alcoholic. he is flippin hilarious.